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A public apology, as spoken by a rabid mermaid.

Sun Apr 19, 2009, 12:42 AM
  • Mood: Tense
  • Reading: To Kill a Mockingbird by Harper Lee
No, I'm not dead. I've read what you guys said on my page. I. Am. Touched. Really, if you've bothered to love me this much... well, I don't really know what to say but thanks.

I have broken down twice in four months. I'm, as they put it, "Devolving" into a sobbing putrid mess that was once a girl who was going to take the O-levels without a care in the world.

I'm tired, I have the biggest life-determining exam that I will ever have faced six months in front of me, I am failing my Literature, my History is becoming history, my English is starting to look like Russian script, and I haven't even bothered with my face and I'm breaking out in motherbleeping acne.

So, yes. My life in a nutshell.

Im just so, so tired. I have bags. I never have bags. I can't even sleep for more than five hours a night.

...And if you're still reading this, I love you. I love you more tha anything in the world. I love every last one of you who asked me where I was, I love anyone who wondered, thought about what happened to me during the day, I love anyone who spent a second in their life remembering me.

When I first came to dA and started reading people's journals, I promised I'd never write a journal that had me complaining about my life. I can do just fine without people feeling sorry for me - but now, I just don't know if that's the case.

I'm sorry for leaving you wondering, I'm sorry for leaving you in the lurch, I'm sorry you have to listen to me, I'm sorry for owing you anything I haven't quite been able to pay back, and I'm sorry, most of all, for not being there to explain all this shit until now.

Call it escapism. I just haven't been able to bring myself here. I always figured, well, one of you might be mad at me. I'd never forgive myself if that was the case.

I owe loads of you art, stories, and, mainly, my presence as your friend. For that, I'm truly sorry. What else can I say but I Ran Out Of Time?

As for that burning What Now? I'll be staying away for a while. I'll be back occasionally - you won't miss me, really - and I'll be fully back in December.

Until then, let me tell you that I love you, and I think about you all the time.

Love,
Winnie

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  • Interests: Stealing candy from little children.
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  • Favourite genre of music: English Folk
  • Favourite artist: The Brandywine School of Art
  • Favourite poet or writer: Roahl Dahl, and Neil Gaiman?
  • Favourite style of art: The 'painterly' brushy style!
  • Operating System: Windows XP
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  • Favourite game: Uh... Pokemon...?
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psst. nicolette. guess who I am. :D

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Do you think that you'll ever come back to PE2K?
This is getting kinda scary. Wan, where are you?
Please don't disappear like Exophi did...
YOU'VE BEEN HUGGED

Spread the DA love around! (you can copy and paste this message on their userpage!)

RULES:
1- You can hug the person who hugged you!
2- You -MUST- hug 6 other people, at least!
3- You should hug them in public! Paste it on their user page!
4- Random hugs are perfectly okay! (and sweet)
5- You should most definitely get started hugging right away!

Send This To All Your Friends, And Me If I Am 1.
If You Get 7 Back You Are Loved!

Hugglez! <3
oops, wrong button ^^;

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Jesus Christ is my lord and my savior
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Sorry for my poor english.. -.-
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If you can name three vampires stronger then Edward McSparklepire, copy/paste this to your sig.

- Count Dracula
- Count Von Count
- The Count & Sinden
Hey Winnie, where are you? You've been gone for eleven weeks.. Im getting worried :worry:

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Jesus Christ is my lord and my savior
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Sorry for my poor english.. -.-
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If you can name three vampires stronger then Edward McSparklepire, copy/paste this to your sig.

- Count Dracula
- Count Von Count
- The Count & Sinden
Mind if I ask how you get your font to be so small? O.o

Nice Gallery btw, keep it up. ^_^

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Thanks for the visit! :heart:

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